There are some points in your life that you stop to think, "What have I achieved in my life?" "Am I happy with how my life is?" "What am I going to do next?". Well this is one of my moment. At the age of 23, I can't help but not feel fulfilled with my current life. Single. Still studying. And nothing to my name.
Rather the thought that is going through me now is "I am bored". I need something exciting to change the pace of my life. A jolt to this monotonous life. A tint of colour to my black & white painting. Simply put, I need a girlfriend. Someone to talk to when I am bored and down, be there to cheer me up and make my day. Why didn't I find one? I kind of wasted my polytechnic days awhile gaming. Hiding in recluse and not giving a damn about anything else including my appearance. That would be 3 years. Military service took 2. And now I can't find a girl to call my own. The 5 years didn't give me any experience and I find myself, already bogged down with low self-esteem, hard to find a girlfriend.
Well, I recently got to get to know a group of people. Having a few girls I wouldn't mind dating if given a chance. But I don't know how to go about it. Tried to get closer to one but I don't think it is working. A reply from a SMS can take 2 hours. No signs of interest noticed, I believed. That kind of put down my self-esteem even lower. Having no success in love has really put down my self-esteem. I am just afterall, a lonely guy who seeks special attention from a girl I can call mine. A simple wish that I do not see being fulfilled in the near future.
Dream...
Just my thoughts
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Mug
My sister never fail to amaze me at how she can plant herself to the chair and MUG for hours. I think I need to ask my parents about not giving me those genes man! I could barely sit through ONE hour of studying, kind of pathetic if you ask me. I cannot seem to sit down quietly and study properly or worst, sit down quietly and do nothing. Something in me just calls out for me to do something, anything but the two above options. Heck! I was going to tell myself to study and I procrastinated and came to blog. Go ME!
This blog was created for me to kill time, pen my thoughts and vent my stress. It kind of achieved it's objective! Since I swore not to go back into gaming untill my exams are over. I kind of wish I would stop gaming forever, maybe that's too much. Casual would sound good. Also, I created this blog to hone my creative mind thinking! A couple of years of not using it and it's all rusty now. This is like my safe haven but I want people to read this, to voice their opinions on my thoughts, but not anyone close. This is my thought at it's rawest and letting someone close read it, it's kind of like they have seen me naked. Awkward. Also another benefit of penning my thoughts is that it helps my vocabulary! The number of times I went to dictionary.com up to this third post beat my entire year count for it! Well, to be exact the count would be 0, so anything would had beat that.
I think that is enough for my creative and stress outlet for today.
Just my thoughts
This blog was created for me to kill time, pen my thoughts and vent my stress. It kind of achieved it's objective! Since I swore not to go back into gaming untill my exams are over. I kind of wish I would stop gaming forever, maybe that's too much. Casual would sound good. Also, I created this blog to hone my creative mind thinking! A couple of years of not using it and it's all rusty now. This is like my safe haven but I want people to read this, to voice their opinions on my thoughts, but not anyone close. This is my thought at it's rawest and letting someone close read it, it's kind of like they have seen me naked. Awkward. Also another benefit of penning my thoughts is that it helps my vocabulary! The number of times I went to dictionary.com up to this third post beat my entire year count for it! Well, to be exact the count would be 0, so anything would had beat that.
I think that is enough for my creative and stress outlet for today.
Just my thoughts
Regret
Topic of the day. Looking back at the things I've done (Yes! reference intended from backstreetboys), wouldn't there have been a regret in your past? A wrong you wish you could set right. A mistake you want to undo. Or maybe.. A move you did not dare to make? But that's all in the pass now, all that's left is a tint of, yes topic of the day, REGRET.
A new chapter has began in all our lives, but you cannot lie that once in awhile you would wonder if the present would be different if you changed your action in the past. Be it studying harder for exams, practising harder for competitions or making a move on your dream girl. We all have something we wish we can change in the past, but yes, that's already in the past. Instead of regret, we should be looking forward. The pass regret should serve as a reference for your future actions. Studying consistently instead of last minute. Practise harder but fairly for competitions. And last but not least, making THE move on your dream girl. (You might notice that I rant alot on love, mainly because I have let a few opportunity slip by and have not fully experienced it. That would be my regret.)
Typically speaking, everyone would tell you to move on and not harp on past regrets. Well, that's BASICALLY what all level-minded people would say. For example, a heart break. It is not something that you can get over overnight, well for most people. A couple of my friends experienced one, but they both had different ways and time length to get over it. One chose to drown in sorrow. The other chose to hit the club AND drown in sorrow. I do not know if it's just that all heartbroken guys do that or my company. Well, time passed and they got over it. One is with a girl now. The other still looking, though he says he not looking as he is not over his last relationship but I think he is just bull shitting and waiting to snag the next girl that open up to him. Well, that's from my perspective anyway.
Blah blah. Morale of story blah blah. With every article I compose, I do have a morale or experience that I intend to convey but what's the point of telling you the morale of the story point-blank when you should had understood it reading the previous few paragraphs?
With that,
Just my thoughts
A new chapter has began in all our lives, but you cannot lie that once in awhile you would wonder if the present would be different if you changed your action in the past. Be it studying harder for exams, practising harder for competitions or making a move on your dream girl. We all have something we wish we can change in the past, but yes, that's already in the past. Instead of regret, we should be looking forward. The pass regret should serve as a reference for your future actions. Studying consistently instead of last minute. Practise harder but fairly for competitions. And last but not least, making THE move on your dream girl. (You might notice that I rant alot on love, mainly because I have let a few opportunity slip by and have not fully experienced it. That would be my regret.)
Typically speaking, everyone would tell you to move on and not harp on past regrets. Well, that's BASICALLY what all level-minded people would say. For example, a heart break. It is not something that you can get over overnight, well for most people. A couple of my friends experienced one, but they both had different ways and time length to get over it. One chose to drown in sorrow. The other chose to hit the club AND drown in sorrow. I do not know if it's just that all heartbroken guys do that or my company. Well, time passed and they got over it. One is with a girl now. The other still looking, though he says he not looking as he is not over his last relationship but I think he is just bull shitting and waiting to snag the next girl that open up to him. Well, that's from my perspective anyway.
Blah blah. Morale of story blah blah. With every article I compose, I do have a morale or experience that I intend to convey but what's the point of telling you the morale of the story point-blank when you should had understood it reading the previous few paragraphs?
With that,
Just my thoughts
Monday, January 3, 2011
Creation of my thoughts!
Created this blog out of a spur of moment and boredom.
Doubt i'll tell anyone close about this blog too. Making it my solace to pen my thoughts to... whoevers out there. But hey, who would wanna read a guy blog.
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A thought came running to me when I saw a friend post about her love life being like Taylor Swift - Teardrops on My Guitar on Facebook.
Guys usually don't see that a girl likes him, untill the girl tell him in the face flat. Reason? Guys don't overthink things like girls. Fact. Also, Guys prefer to be told that you actually like them but the mindset of where I am is still guys being the hunter and girls the hunted. But I don't disagree that the prize goes to the one who tried.
There are many types of guys. Charismatic, Easygoing, Laidback, Humourous, Sauve, Confident, Passive. Needless to say, the Charismatic, the Humourous
, the Sauve, the Confident would work well in being the hunter. Prowling their desired female and successfully attracting their attention. And girls will tend to like the attention they get from those guys.
Now you will be asking, where are the Laidback, the Easygoing, the Passive guys in this story? Often the good friend the girl confides in and tell about the new sauve guy that she just met and got hit on by. The guy that sits and just stares that does not want to get out of the comfort zone to attempt for fail of rejection. The low self esteem guy that think the girl he love is out of his league.
Cure for this? Brave up. There's no free food in this world and you'll need to work your way to get the girls.
Just my thoughts.
Doubt i'll tell anyone close about this blog too. Making it my solace to pen my thoughts to... whoevers out there. But hey, who would wanna read a guy blog.
--
A thought came running to me when I saw a friend post about her love life being like Taylor Swift - Teardrops on My Guitar on Facebook.
Guys usually don't see that a girl likes him, untill the girl tell him in the face flat. Reason? Guys don't overthink things like girls. Fact. Also, Guys prefer to be told that you actually like them but the mindset of where I am is still guys being the hunter and girls the hunted. But I don't disagree that the prize goes to the one who tried.
There are many types of guys. Charismatic, Easygoing, Laidback, Humourous, Sauve, Confident, Passive. Needless to say, the Charismatic, the Humourous
, the Sauve, the Confident would work well in being the hunter. Prowling their desired female and successfully attracting their attention. And girls will tend to like the attention they get from those guys.
Now you will be asking, where are the Laidback, the Easygoing, the Passive guys in this story? Often the good friend the girl confides in and tell about the new sauve guy that she just met and got hit on by. The guy that sits and just stares that does not want to get out of the comfort zone to attempt for fail of rejection. The low self esteem guy that think the girl he love is out of his league.
Cure for this? Brave up. There's no free food in this world and you'll need to work your way to get the girls.
Just my thoughts.
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