There are some points in your life that you stop to think, "What have I achieved in my life?" "Am I happy with how my life is?" "What am I going to do next?". Well this is one of my moment. At the age of 23, I can't help but not feel fulfilled with my current life. Single. Still studying. And nothing to my name.
Rather the thought that is going through me now is "I am bored". I need something exciting to change the pace of my life. A jolt to this monotonous life. A tint of colour to my black & white painting. Simply put, I need a girlfriend. Someone to talk to when I am bored and down, be there to cheer me up and make my day. Why didn't I find one? I kind of wasted my polytechnic days awhile gaming. Hiding in recluse and not giving a damn about anything else including my appearance. That would be 3 years. Military service took 2. And now I can't find a girl to call my own. The 5 years didn't give me any experience and I find myself, already bogged down with low self-esteem, hard to find a girlfriend.
Well, I recently got to get to know a group of people. Having a few girls I wouldn't mind dating if given a chance. But I don't know how to go about it. Tried to get closer to one but I don't think it is working. A reply from a SMS can take 2 hours. No signs of interest noticed, I believed. That kind of put down my self-esteem even lower. Having no success in love has really put down my self-esteem. I am just afterall, a lonely guy who seeks special attention from a girl I can call mine. A simple wish that I do not see being fulfilled in the near future.
Dream...
Just my thoughts
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